I just love this prayer by Macrina Weiderkher. It is so appropriate for the first post and theme of this blog. It goes; “O God, help me to believe the truth about myself no matter how beautiful it is.”
Almost five years ago…
Lying on my bed about to fall asleep, I saw a vision of me standing in front of a mirror looking at my face. I knew The Lord was speaking to me so I asked; what are you saying, Lord? What does this vision mean? But I did not hear Him respond.
I woke up the next morning still pondering the vision The Lord had given me… As I was checking my emails for that day, one of Joseph Prince daily devotional caught my attention (I must confess I don’t read them on a daily basis). The title read, Behold the glory of Jesus in you. I clicked on the email.
And there it was…
2 Corinthians 3:18 But we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of The Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory, just as from The Lord, the Spirit.
In that moment that scripture became so real and alive to me. And as I read the whole devotional I clearly heard The Lord say; “when you look in the mirror do not see yourself see Jesus” Without a doubt The Lord was speaking but I still did not know what it all meant for me personally and what I was suppose to do with what He had revealed to me.
Because I knew it was The Lord I held the vision close to my heart day and night I pondered on it. As I pondered and meditated on the vision it took a hold of my heart and would not let go. I had a sense that The Lord was inviting me to experience what He had revealed to me and write a book about it.
He was inviting me to go on an adventure with Him…
My lover said to me, “Rise up, my darling! Come away with me, my fair one! Look, the winter is passed, and the rains are over and gone. The flowers are springing up, the season of singing birds has come, and the cooing turtledoves fill the air. The fig trees are forming young fruit, and the fragrant grapevines are blossoming. Rise up, my darling! Come away with me, my fair one!” – Song of Solomon 2:10-13 (NLT)
Fast forward to today; my understanding of what The Lord is saying is this (not that I have it all figured out but what I have learned in the last five years is that there is a lifetime of revelation in this one vision) ->
When we look in the mirror our natural response and tendency is to see ourself. As humans it is our default mode. It is what we have learned and conditioned ourself to see and look for. And what we see in the mirror we have come to believe it is who we are. We trust and rely on what we see without question. Which is right in a sense but how do we know that the person we see in the mirror is who we really are? Is there some way we can know that what we see is reliable and true?
I read somewhere in a book that there are only two ways you can know what your face looks like. They are:
#1) looking in a reflective surface such a mirror or a photograph
#2) someone telling you what your face looks like.
I think this apply’s to knowing who we are as well.
#1) Father God who created you and
#2) by spending time in His word (the bible is likened to a mirror).
We cannot trust and rely on our thinking, behaviour and experience to tell us who we are. My thinking, behaviour and experience is not evidence that ‘I am’ but it is evidence of what I believe. No matter how real my experience feel, it is not real. It is a lie! It is a vain imagination! Anything that exalts itself against the word of God is a lie, end of!
I strongly believe this is the way we are meant to do life to do relationship with God. To trust God and take Him at His word no matter what our experience tell us. We don’t deny our experience and pretend they don’t exist but we simply exalt God’s word above all.
If He says we are new creations then we are no longer this person we see in the mirror. This person we see in the mirror has been crucified with Christ it is no longer this person who lives but Christ lives in us. It a beautiful paradox; I live yet not I.
The bible says,
“In light of your co-inclusion in His death and resurrection, whoever you thought you were before, in Christ you are a brand new person! The old ways of seeing yourself and everyone else are over. Acquaint yourself with the new.” 2 Corinthians 5:17 (Mirror Translation)